Thailand Floating or Riverside Markets and Suicidal Thought

cite this article: Arunrangsiwed, P. (2019). Thailand Floating or Riverside Markets and Suicidal Thought. Retrieved from https://sw-eden.net/2019/12/31/thailand-floating-riverside-markets-suicide/

Thailand Floating or Riverside Markets and Suicidal Thought

I really hate to have an argument with anyone in my family, but sometimes I have to, because I need a better tomorrow. Something needs to be talked about, since existing problems have to be solved. It is hurt a lot when I have to drive my emotion during the argument. Many times, I want to commit suicide. I cry from inside, but I have to remind myself the reason to be alive. There are so many things waiting for me to do.

My friends or co-workers in my office found that I am a successful teacher who graduated a doctoral degree and got promoted to be an assistant professor at the age 31. They said that it is very fast and many people could not do it. For me, I want to be a novelist writing a story about my favorite king. I want to make it a feminist fantasy fiction. I want Thailand, my hometown, to have this kind of fiction. Teacher work makes me too busy to have a long-continuous time to reach my dream or my wish. Floating market or riverside market might be the short-term solution for it.

Floating markets and riverside markets in Thailand are the nice place to have some rest and to forget about everyday routine. Even I sometimes have argument with my family members, but when we come to floating market or riverside market together, the bad things seem to fade away. I really like the moment that I and my family enjoy the walk and foods at floating market. These places make me and my beloved family happy. We always smile there. I could find my happiness at least in a short period before getting back to work again.

The point is that my work is not related to my dream about being the novelist at all. My dream seems to be far away when I learn that today kids do not like to read a book, even it is a novel or fun fan fiction. However, I plan to make it anyway, if I have a chance. I hope for the best, I hope for the chance. I am waiting for an opportunity to leave my organization or have a leave-without-paid period.

Every time that I think about my identity conflict or the serious argument in my family, I would bring them to some floating markets or riverside markets. This helps us pass through the hard day. Once a week might be too short or not enough. I will never let it go. I will make it longer and better. I am going to do a project to promote some non-famous floating markets in Thailand. If they could survive, I will also survive. There might be many people with similar problem as well as me, and I think floating markets are helping them, too.

It is important to note that I posted this article in this webpage before I put everything together and submitted to the university. In other words, I owned the copyrights of this article or blog post, and later, I reused this copyrighted material in the research report. Similarly, I wrote an article for a conference in Phayao, and later, I used the article for the research report. That also means, I owned the copyrighted material before reusing it again in the research report.