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About The SW Eden

Sw Eden is known as a Thai artist.

Give me a good reason to leave my job, please.

S.W. Eden

Cite this journal as: Eden, S. W. (2018). Give me a good reason to leave my job, please. Retrieved from http://sw-eden.net

I just found myself become more selfish than the last 6 years. I was a Thai students who graduated in New York and finish a Master degree at Sydney. I went back to Thailand 6 years ago, and became a lecturer in a large university in Thailand. My goal was to provide the knowledge to my students and to have some free time to write my own novel.

The first year of being a university lecturer in Thailand is like a heaven. I got some free time to write the beginning part of my own novel. I got a chance to bring my students to go outside the classroom. I let them take the photos in the important places in Bangkok, and sometimes, I asked them to draw Thai temples.

The first year passed so fast. Everything changed in the secend year. I have to teach 7 days a week. I got no free time. I have to travel to another far-away campus to give a class. They also forced people to continue study in the doctoral degree. I have to go to school again, but in Thailand. I registered for 2 classes in one semester, but I had to teach 30 hours a week.

dog student work alone leave home

I had no more time to prepare my teaching at that moment. I did not correct and provide the suggesting in my students’ worksheet as I had done before. I felt really bad. My graduate school is about 3-hour far from my workplace. I had to run around 3 places each week. They said that if the employees did not continue the education, they would fire us so soon.

While I work so hard and had lack of free time, I compare myself to someone else in the same school. Like, one of my close friend, he has a lot of free time. He asked me to go to see movie with him, and to join his lunch and dinner. I think it is a good thing. He is a friendly one, but I got no time to do all those things. Not just only him, who can do many stuffs. Some also work outside the school. They have secret jobs in other private companies and earn a lot of money.

Moreover, these people got a higher evaluation score than me. Many got a higher salary than me. I began to feel that the life is unfair. I could see that my attitude is changed. I want to do thing for myself more than before. My dream has not been completed yet. I spent too much time for the university, without getting things I actually need. Those people in the higher position keep saying that this university is the university of happiness. However, for me, it is not. My happiness is when I got enough time for my family and for writing my own novel. I do not have both yet. Although I have dinner with my family, but In think I should have spent more day time with them, not just at night.

Those people think that to have a happiness is to work hard to push the university to be in the highest place in the world. They want to see the university being one of the top ten of the country. They believe that if we got into that ranking, everyone will be proud and happy. That is the definition of the happiness they believe. That is not the happiness I need. I need my time. I need to be someone I have dreamed to be. I want to be a cool author who write a famous novel. I want to be a cool artist being known in a specific group of people. My dream does not got walked yet. What should I do then?

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Is he going to be a selfish husband?

S.W. Eden

Cite this journal as: Eden, S. W. (2018). Is he going to be a selfish husband? Retrieved from http://sw-eden.net

I had had a friend. I do not want to name him here. So, I would like to give him a nickname, Fred, to call him in this post.

Fred is one of a few faculty members who is good-looking and also has a good-looking girlfriend. Some think that he is very genius. For me, it is like a stereotype, that if he is good-looking and always wear a formal cloth, everyone will think that he is responsible and intelligent.

I did not think like others since the first time I met this guy. In my life, I meet many people with this appearance, but have no responsibility. I did not say that I prejudiced him, but I say that I just waited to see his actual behaviors.

Once, he asked me for the first 30 minutes of my class for his friends from a TV show to shoot a footage in my class. 30 minutes is okay for me to give him. And it is a good thing if my students could be in a show. Therefore, I allow his friends to shoot the footage in my class.

My class hour is from 4:00 PM to 7:00 PM. You know what? His friends could get the camera ready in the first 30 minutes. Many crews just begin to download the files to put into the computer (as a part of the show, they need to have a powerpoint slide). They finished everything at 6:00 PM. This means, he asked me for half an hour, but they took me 2 hours.

It is worse than that. The time during the process got slower than the expectation, no one walked to inform me what actually happened. I was waiting in the teacher room, and I have to keep walking to the class to see if they finished their job. And after 2 hours that they just finish their job, no crews walked to inform me that I could begin my class. It was my own students who walk to me and tell me that I could go into the class then.

bird red room student work in class

My students felt tired and wanted to go home instead of keep learning for another hour. I gave them a short class, so they could go. Those crew from the TV shows did not say any “thanks” to me, did not inform me when they had gone, and did not give anything to my students. They just came to take the advantage from us. They just wanted a footage with students in the class.

I told the guy, the good-looking faculty member, what happened. He did not care, I know. He just said sorry, but I could see his face. He was not actually sorry, because he was laughing and smiling.

It is worse than that. The officer of my faculty walked to the classroom, and he did not see me in the classroom at my hours. He just checked that I did not come to teach. It is true of him, but it is not totally my fault. My fault is that I said, okay, at the first time to that guy.

Next 4-5 months, that guy I hate got married. I guess most people in the same program went to his wedding ceremony. I did not go there. I cannot forgive. I hope he is gone, gone from my life.

A good thing that I did not go to his wedding ceremony is that he did not talk to me again after the day. He may think that I am selfish that I did not go there, but in fact, he is one of the most selfish guys I have ever met.

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Your best friend always lies to you. Why?

S.W. Eden

Cite this journal as: Eden, S. W. (2018). Your best friend always lies to you. Why? Retrieved from http://sw-eden.net

I got a friend when I went to a graduate school. I, a kind of, liked her, because, with my first judgement, she had a quality that could be my future girlfriend. We were nice to each other. We went shopping together at a few shopping malls we could find in a small town. At that moment, I thought we could get along well.

However, she started being a liar, a very big liar. She missed our appointment twice without initial informing. Both of the times, I kept waiting for her for whole day. We both got the hotspot in our apartment, and also the internet in the devices. When I tried to contact her to ask if she would come or not, she did not provide me any answer. She disappeared from the connection and did not say anything to me. Later, when we meet at the school, she pretended like there was nothing happen.

After that, I felt like, she was not real for me. She had too many reasons to say that everything was not her mistake. It was only because she is the big liar. I felt I was alone for a week and trying to stop myself thinking about her.

conflict love friend liar school
Figure 1: Conflict with friends

We did not talk to each other about half year. Later, we met again in other school in Thailand. We enrolled in the same class with the same teacher. I made a decision to forgive her and became her friend again. I am a guy with a short memory. I did not feel that I am hurt that much anymore.

Later, I knew from the teacher that she told him a bad thing about me, and it was not the truth. The teacher did not know that she was (again) the liar. I was suddenly angry. I told the truth to the teacher. I dis not know if he would whether believe me or not. He asked me to calm down and forgive her.

Right now, I still have to meet her sometimes at the school. I feel like what I am doing is to pretend to be nice. I will never hurt her in turn by telling a lie. I am not good at that and I do not want to be like that. If she asked me for help, okay, I will help, but that does not mean I forgive or forget everything she has done to me, but it is because I think it is the thing that a normal person should do. I cannot feel like nothing had happened between us.

So, what is the song that I should sing for her? I want to sing some alternative rock or punk. Dear the readers, please name me one song.

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Get someone else to write your research papers?

S.W. Eden

Cite this journal as: Eden, S. W. (2018). Get someone else to write your research papers? Retrieved from http://sw-eden.net

I am a very ordinary teacher in a school/program in a large university in Thailand. I also know other teachers from other university. Everyone with this kind of job, the university teachers or lecturers, will have to upgrade themselves to be assistant professor, associate professor, and professor, respectively. Therefore, we read the rule written by the government, about what kind of papers or academic works that we have to submit for the committee to judge or promote us.

The rules say that the academic works could be the research paper or academic paper that got publish in the conference proceedings and journals. They could be the creative work, such as movies or games that have published academic paper supporting them. People I know from other universities walk follow this rules. They could submit their research paper published in conference proceeding to the committee to consider.

However, my university creates their own rule for some reason. They do not allow me and other employees to submit the conference papers, but only papers published in the journals. This makes our life harder than other people in other university.

In fact, there was an Easter egg hidden in this policy.

she the president
Figure 1: research the search from ocean

Some friends told me that many employees bought the research papers with the money about 400-500 USD per a paper. In other words, they hired someone else to write it for them. They did not actually know anything about the paper or even the topic of the paper. After they bought the paper, they submit it to the conference in order to travel around many countries outside Thailand.

Because the president of my university discovered this Easter egg, she believes that most conference papers are not written by the authors appeared on them. This might be the reason that she does not allow anyone to use conference papers to send to the committees in order to be promoted to be an assistant professor, and also other levels.

I do not like the way she thinks though. I have written all conference papers by myself. I have never hired anyone to do it for me, but I lose the chance to use them to submit to the committees and being promote. I am both angry and depress. The president makes the world unfair. Why doesn’t she just get rid of the cheating people who buy the academic work? If she could do it, the honest ones will be able to use their conference papers to get into the higher job position.

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Got an F or Fail from major courses, What can I do?

S. W. Eden

Cite this journal as: Eden, S. W. (2018). Got an F or Fail from major courses, What can I do? Retrieved from http://sw-eden.net

I am a university lecturer. I know that I should be very serious and all the students should be serious about their education, too. When I was an undergraduate student, about 10 years ago, some friends got an F and I have got a couple of F, too. Although I had never had an absent and I submitted all the class assignment in those two classes, I still got F because I fail in the final exam.

Today, I have been a university lecturer for 6 years, in Thailand. Now is the time that all universities have to think about their future, regarding the decreased number of new students. I think the university would need to consider about the “give an F” policy. They may not like the teachers to give the F to the students, because that reduces students’ satisfaction. Students may quit the university if they found they get many Fs.

The topic that I would like to discuss here is that, should I give an F to a very bad student? Bad students are those who often have absent. In the whole semester, they came to class only 2-3 times. Some did not come to take an exam, but they asked their parents to write the letter to ask me to allow their sons to take the exam after the examination date.

teacher and funny student
Figure 1: Teacher and funny student cartoon drawing

Almost all of these bad students do not submit any assignment, and they often said that they had other work to do to earn the money to help their family. I do not know if it is real or not, but I think, if it is real, they should drop and register for the class again when they have more free time.

Some professors in my university give these bad students the F, but some do not. Let’s talk about those who do not give the F for very bad students. We should be curious about what they actually think.

I have talk to one of them. He told me that if the students are very bad, he should allow them to keep being in the school until they graduate. This is because if no one gives an opportunity for these bad students, they would leave the school and do some illegal job in the future. On the other hand, if they are bad students who graduate, they will automatically find the job that most people look for. This way will help the society as a whole.

However, I still think that this thought is not entirely right. It might be right, but it does not fair for all other students who try very hard to graduate.

Last semester, I allowed a very bad student to pass my class with the grade D-. In fact, he should get an F, because he came to class only 2 times. Then, he took the exam. The total score he got was 30 from 100. I feel really bad about what I have done. I should not let him pass.

You guys… Do you want to say something about this issue. If I engage in this kind of situation again, what should I do?

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I will Burnout. What can a teacher do?

S. W. Eden

Cite this journal as: Eden, S.W. (2018). I will Burnout. What can a teacher do? Retrieved from http://sw-eden.net

I have never feel like this before. I have a negative feeling about the place I am working at. I do not want to name the organization here, and also my name. Only thing I could say is that I am in Bangkok, Thailand. I have worked here about half a decade. And many times, I think that it is enough for me. Many things have changed. I had had many good students in my class, but now there were a less number of good students.

student and teacher cute bird drop water late
Figure 1: A teacher bird and a student bird.

I feel I love a group of Public Relation students, but lately, some of them (3 students) betrayed me twice. They took a photo of me to make an evident for some purpose. One of them said that I gave her a wrong point.

You know what? I knew what I did. I am sure about my grading. These students have problem with the “less than 1 point” (based on 100 points). They fight against me for that “less than 1 point” thing. I could spread negative words about me that the grade was not fair for them.

Hence, what is my problem? My problem is that I am very disappointed. These three students failed me. I feel like, the love I gave them before is nothing. However, I still have a positive attitude about other Public Relation students. I like to teach them better than many other students from other program.

I wish that there would be only these three students that I may have a negative attitude with. I want to keep a positive feeling and all the good moment for all other students.

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Put your friends’ names in your own work. Why?

S.W. Eden

Cite this journal as: Eden, S.W. (2018). Put your friends’ names in your own work. Why? Retrieved from http://sw-eden.net

My beloved professor, my advisor in my doctoral dissertation, told me that I should put the name of my friends as the second and the third author in my research paper. This is because it will help them in the teacher evaluation system, and also the course program evaluation audited by the government.

In other words, my friends and I are in the school of digital media in a university. The laws (or rules) are that every teacher in the school needs to publish a research paper. If not, the government will shut down the school program, and there will be no more freshmen in the upcoming academic year.

This is the reason that I have to add my friends in the same school as the second and the third author of my research paper. I have to keep my school alive. And I do not feel bad to have the names of my friends on my paper. Everything seems to be okay.

Classroom in Thailand, and Thai people
Figure 1: Thai religion, a part of education

My university also provides the award for teachers who could publish their research paper, and that is a good thing. If I am the only one author of the published paper, I will get 200 USD. It is not much money in Thailand, but it could encourage me to keep writing the paper. However, when I put my friends’ name on my paper, I will get less money according to the percent or proportion of my work.

Before now, I filled in the form that I did 90% of the work, and other teachers did 10%. This way, I will not get 20 USD, which is 10% with the name of my friends. I do not know if the university know that I did 100% of the work.

Another annoying rule is that only one author of each research paper could receive the money. This means that my friend will not be able to get 20 USD, too.

This is how I lost the benefit when I help my friends and my program to survive.

And now, it is even worse than what I have told you. The university announced the new rule of rewarding. Every author of the research paper has to have at least 10% of the work. This mean, if I added 5 co-authors in my research paper and 10% was given per each, I would left only 50% of work. This means I will earn only 100 USD per one paper.

I called the guy who worked in this rewarding office, and I try to explain that I added the co-authors to keep my school survival, and these co-authors did not have anything to do with my paper.

Do you know what they tell me? I am very upset and feel depressive for many weeks.

They told me, like, the teacher (like me), who had many co-authors in the same work, was selfish, because other co-authors did not have a chance to get paid, especially when the first author filled in the form that she did 90% of the work. But! we could not forget that there is the rule that only one author in each paper could ask for the reward.

Hence, the point is that they did not actually think that I am the selfish, but they just did not want to pay money to the teacher who could publish the research paper.

I really hate this rule. I do not know what kind of brain was used to form such this policy. I want to quit my teacher job. Although 200 USD is not that much money to force me to leave the job, but these rules and policies make me depressive. They do not encourage their employees, but they show their narrow-mind through their thought toward their employees.

I am not the selfish one. I still do what I have done to keep my school opening in the following years. I want to see new students join my school and I do not want to see anyone got fired from their job.

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It is annoying to be with leaders without leadership? (Thailand context)

S.W. Eden

Cite this journal as: Eden, S.W. (2018). It is annoying to be with leaders without leadership? (Thailand context). Retrieved from http://sw-eden.net

I don’t want to put my real name around this post, because it may have some effect in my career. If you want to mention this post, just cite me as “the Sw Eden,” which is my long-time pseudonym.

I have worked in a large university in Thailand. Right now, most of the deans, vice presidents, and the president do worry about the decreased number of young people, because it would cause a lower rate of freshmen in the upcoming semesters. However, that is not the major problem that I would like to say in this blog.

Based on the fact that some students today are very aggressive, teachers play an important role to teach them to be a better person. The aggressive students would not listen to teachers’ work, but they are like to to fight against their teacher both directly and indirectly. They used their cell phone to take the photo, record the voice, and video, to show to other teachers with a higher position in the organization. My friends told me her experience that her students recorded her voice when she blamed them with a loud voice. These students showed the clip to some vice president and said that she was an unreasonable teacher. You know what? My friend told me more about this that she got blamed, because no one believed her words that she tried to teach her students to be a better person.

Thai cat students in nan boat
Figure 1: Thai cat

In my opinion, I think that some may believe what she said, but they concern about the students more than the teachers. This is because the number of students is the major factor that cause the business stability for the university. The university must not make the students unsatisfied. If they did, the students would spread the words and it would result in a lower number of new students in the following years.

Maybe, I would say that I need to see the actual leader with a truly high leadership quality. The one should be someone that fairly listens to both teachers and students. The current teacher evaluation system may need to be canceled because it makes many teachers are not dare to blame the students.

I wish the university should be a better place than now. I hope for the best. I wish Thailand would have more of good students, the one with good skills and good manners.

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Plagiarism in School Assignment in Thailand, How should I work with it?

Proud Arunrangsiwed

This is Proud Arunrangsiwed. I am a Thai university lecturer. The time that I write this post is November, 2018. I do not have much time to write my blogs recently. Most of the time of mine has been devoted for my students and research studies. Although my university needs a ton of research papers to improve its university ranking, but I cannot just sit and write my papers without taking care of my students. I have spent many hours a week to work with my students’ thesis and the correct their assignment. I might not one of a few lecturers that assign the individual projects and homework for the students to do. We all know that to assign individual projects, teachers have to spent a large amount of time on reviewing, talking, and correcting students’ work. I could do it. I mean, I will do it, because I feel that it is a right thing to do so. I think the students will be benefited by working in their individual project better than the group work.

I have noticed many other university lecturers. Many of them assigned the group work, and most of these works are about to write a whole book to report some project. Like, the whole semester, each group of students have to submit only one assignment, which is this thick book. These lecturers would grade the students based on only this book, class attendance, and the exams. There are no other homework assignments. Some said that these teachers are lazy. However, I would rather say that I am too diligent.

Let’s talk about the big-book assignment that most teachers ask most students to complete it at the end of the semester. Almost all of these books contained too much copyright infringement. Undergraduate students are likely to copy the contents from any website that they could find the related information regarding their topics. I am too tired to see this kind of students’ work.

First, I feel like they do not show the respect toward their teachers, because they think that their teachers are stupid and do not know that they copy the work of someone else.

Second, I feel like these students are brainless, because they could not create any work by themselves. I think it is a good thing to look around many information in the internet, but they should read and write them in their own words, not just copy and paste.

Third, I think it is not fair for other students who create the work by themselves. I guess that some teachers may not know how to check the plagiarism without using Turn-it-in. The grading will not be fair for the students who work very hard, compared to those who just copy and paste things from the internet.

Classroom in Thailand, and Thai people
Figure 1: Thai classroom

One of my friends who is the teacher in the school of management told me something about her students. She told me that she tried to blame and teach the students who like to copy and paste online information to put in their project book. You know what? Her students said that she (the teacher) was stupid because she did know the benefit of the internet where was the place for students to copy the text. This is a kind of panic, I think. I do not understand why her students think this way.

Once, I discover the fact that some other teachers also teach their students to copy things around the internet. I have been in a communication or media art program. In some class, the students need to go outside to take the photos and shoot the videos. However, one of my friend in the same school encouraged his students to copy any pictures and videos from websites and paste in their work.

I think, the educational institutes should do something with this kind of teachers. They should have a seminar or workshop or intervention to teach them to be a better teacher. Moreover the university and high school should have more strict rules to punish students who do the copyright infringement and plagiarism.

This blog is written by Proud Arunrangsiwed, a Thai animation teacher.

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Thai students’ school aggression and culture difference

I finished my high school from Thailand, my hometown, and then finished the higher degrees from The United States and Australia. I think I may miss some evolution of the university students in Thailand. I mean, I have never felt the moment of transformation from students in my time (early 2000s) until the students in late 2010s. It is a kind of, I suddenly met students in another generation.

I became a teacher in a large university in Thailand. The first year of my job, my students were probably nice. They are still the ones I love right now. However, later students got worse. It is not about their knowledge and skills, but it is about their higher level of aggressiveness and impoliteness.

Many people in Thailand believe that graduated students from the United States are this type, aggressive and impolite. However, I have never experienced that kind of thing to myself and also my friends in colleges. We said, hello/hi, to our professors and talked to them politely. We did not speak loud in classroom, although we were loud outside the school.

great moment in Thailand

Most of these characteristics are opposite from my students in late 2010s. I mean, the current students in Thailand. About half of them speak to each other loud during class. Many students pretend to not see me when we met outside classroom. They did not say, hi or sawaddee, to me. Some acted impolite and very aggressive, such as shouting at me and throwing stuff in front of me.

I want to make sure that these bad behaviors of students are not only just in my school. Hence, I visited other teachers I know in other schools. They told me the same thing. One of them told me that, in this day, there was no more students who came back to see their teachers after they graduated.

Thailand is not what I think. I think that the university students should have been more polite and less aggressive than those in the United States. I am disappointed. This makes me hate to be their teacher. I want to quit the job. I have spent too much time to push them to their achievement, and then, I got nothing. I am now 31. I am still not the one I want to be. I spend too much life time for others. Should I just stop being a teacher right now? or I just need to cry out?

Thai cow and ox

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